Needed:Some clarity,a lot of love

I saw a really crappy movie this saturday..its called Kurbaan and I was quite looking forward to it..but it was one of those classic situations of expecting too much and getting just nothing.Anyhow the funny thing is that I saw a very bad movie but there was something that connected...some part of me that was affected.And I feel it had more to do with the person I was with.He was my paisa vasool and not Karan Johar's 50 crore magnum opus!!
People say that extreme heartbreak renders you emotionless..but my pandora's box once opened has let out all my dreams but left me with fresh new hope.Its as if every mistake that I made was preparing me for this moment.Now I know what all those nutcases who puffed up for a life meant when they uttered the word 'nirvana'..this absolutely painful yet utterly peaceful state of mind is my nirvana...

Tonight thy spirit please leave me alone

Let loneliness and depression finally take its toll

My noble soul is ready to declare

I need to give up,I need to despair

For too long I've fought this battle

And the only thing thats left is my bruised matter

Tonight thy spirit please leave me alone

Let the tears come at night,oh please let it hurt

Coz they've sneaked upon me all silent and yet robust

Now I walk with Depression on my right and Loneliness on my left

I watch and sigh and then climb into my bed

I pull the covers over myself

knowing I sleep with no hope in my heart